I don't want to keep on thinking about consequences because I have enough of it. I need to get it out of my chest before it explode.

Why must some people scream and shout consistently? And lose their temper everyday? Things can't always go the way you planned. The obvious reason is, the world does not revolves around only YOU. So there are times you should give in. I'm not trying to be defiant or disrespecting you. Nevertheless, I need you to know what I feel deep inside. And I felt this is the best way.

I can't always live up to your expectations. And you can't always says "NO" to what I want to do in life. All you care about is YOU and your wants. How about mine? I have wants too. If that's how you want it to be, why don't you have me dead? Then swap me with a baby robot that comes with a remote control. I believe I'm old enough to know what's right and what's wrong. Nonetheless, I still do need your guidance. Tell me what did I not do for you. I make my way home once you tell me to. Even I know the night is still young. Did I make a big fuss out of it? No, I don't. Whereas, you're aware I don't have school the next morning.

Where's the freedom you once gave me? I made a mistake. And I'm sure that broke your trust towards me. Maybe it all happened after I was caught ******** and ******* in school. But that was 3years back. So you're telling me you have not gain back the trust after 1095 days passed? It's already 2009 and now, I'm about to turn 18 soon. I'm not asking any big bucks from you. I just need your trust. I will know when I should be home even if you were not to remind me. Have I not tell you my whereabouts? Have I not tell you whom I were with? I never keep anything from you. Absolutely NOTHING. If there are somethings which bothered me, I shared it with you. I don't play any dirty little secrets with you. Ask yourself, have I not abandon my bad habits? Do I still do overnights and still have those facial piercings I once had? It was all temporary excitement and it does not last. Tell me what have I not done to not deserve your trust and get the freedom I used to own.

I know you'll be reading this. I'm sorry if I offended you in any ways. It's just that I want you to understand me. We really need to compromise. I love you.